I know it’s hard. Even though you tried your best to give your all to the people around you, but no one seems to appreciate, not even a little bit, making you feel like your importance is just so insignificant despite your efforts.
I know it’s hard, to try to smile again knowing the people whom you trusted the most had betrayed your trust and completely destroyed you, leaving to trust no one ever again.
I know it’s hard, to deal with the loss of someone who plays such an important role in your life and all of the sudden you realized you’re left all alone, helpless and loss, wishing that everything was just a bad dream that you’ll wake up from.
I know it’s hard, to feel happy again, despite all those voices in your head screaming and criticizing you flaws and unworthiness at 3a.m, like you don’t already know them.
I know it’s hard, to bring yourself out with a big wide smile on your face when you’re dying inside, because no one likes a downer.
I know it’s hard, dealing with the loneliness you felt that suicidal thoughts appeared almost too natural for you, but deep deep down you’re actually so afraid of death, and you hated yourself for being such a coward.
It’s so hard, but thank you for being so strong even though no one has ever told you that.
Maybe it’s time to start thinking about living instead of those suicidal thoughts.
Maybe it’s time to see things from a different perspective and start appreciating each and every day that you woke up, breathing, because some of us might not be as fortunate. You’re more worthy than anyone in the world, and you definitely deserve to be happy and beautiful.
Do yourself a favour and start living, do things that makes you happy, go out and wonder into the nature, read a book and get lost to a whole new place, volunteer to help people or animals in need. Pen your thoughts down in a journal, all those negative thoughts, so you won’t have to bottle everything up inside you. No one should.
Be strong and pull through this phase, the future you would be grateful that you did. I’m glad I did.